||[Jun. 3rd, 2008|10:10 am]
so how do i answer, "How are you doing".... "is everything okay?".... "how are you handling everything?"
Well i can't, because i'm not doing, nothing is okay, and i can't handle anything else.
Sometimes, i really think my mom was the only person who really got me, i mean of course my friends get me, but i think she was the only person who really "got me".... i still wake up everyday and can't believe shes really "gone".... it's so hard... because everywhere i look, i can see her standing there.... i know the expressions she would make to every situation, what she would say, how she would have said it.... and that hurts the most.
I'm just so confused, and lost with everything i do.... I feel like some people have come in and out of my life right now for the wrong reasons. My mom dying shouldnt be a reason why i start talking to people again... it just sucks
I'm trying so hard to act like everything is just wonderful, well guess what? it's not
everything just sucks, and i'm def. sick of some people and how selfish they can be.....